However, I noted that there was a particular focus on Maya. I knew right away that this was due to the looming pediatric opthomology appointment we have tomorrow. I have been dreading this day for the last two months. It was at that time that the opth told me that Maya had inherited extreme farsightedness and would more than likely need glasses in the very near future. Although this was not a total surprise (since I had made the proactive appointment to see if the girls had the same condition as Grandpa Ken) it was still quite a blow to find out that she did in fact have this condition. The doctor told me that he would like to see her in two months to see if her prescription changed at all and at that point we would probably be putting her in glasses. (Please note how I have used "probably" and "more than likely" in reference to the final outcome. I think it is my way of holding on to the last thread of hope that her eyes will magically correct themselves by tomorrow morning so as to avoid having to deal with putting my beautiful long-lashed, espresso-eyed angel in spectacles.)
I just love her little face exactly the way it is and can't imagine her wearing little baby glasses everyday from now until she is old enough to decide if she wants to take care of contact lenses. (Sidenote: I am a bit puzzled by my reaction since I too wear glasses and have contacts at my disposal, yet have chosen to wear glasses everyday, primarily for convenience. (Granted they are frameless and barely noticeable.) But why is it okay for me in my mind but not for her?...) Perhaps it is just a glaring first piece of outward evidence that my precious babes are not perfect (although they are in my eyes) and this will be the first in a long list of imperfections and flaws that they will need to learn to cope with and embrace. As their mom, I want to protect them from anything that might cause them pain or hurt and I see her glasses as the embodiment of so many growing pains that are yet to come. Don't get me wrong, in the scope of world suffering I realize that Maya in glasses is a minor hiccup. But I guess this morning I am just feeling sad that this brief pristine world of infancy is about to evolve into something different...a journey where more and more of the outside world will be coming in to make its mark on the identities of my little ones.
5 comments:
Oh Amy,
What a beautiful and heartfelt entry. Your little Maya is just adorable the way she is, you're so right. I know she'll be adorable with glasses, too, but I totally understand your sadness. Good luck at her appointment. Let us know how it goes.
Karol
Glasses for farsightness actually make the eyes appear larger.
My granddaughter, now six, has worn glasses since she was two. She has the ones that transition to darker when outside - hers turn a cool shade of lavendar/purple. They have cute glasses for kids now. If you can afford them, the transition ones are better for their eyes when outside.
Get ready for scratches & constantly changing prescriptions.
Best, gail
Don't fret, Amy. Maya will be just as darling with her glasses. Ruby's friend Daisy wears them and she is just magnetic!
I do hear you about the outside world encroaching on the innocent little bubble of our children. So well put. I'm in tears over here (but you read my blog so you understand that I'm in a state at the moment). I feel the same way. You are also not alone.
Thanks for your continued support of my writing and gentleness with the exposure of my innermost feelings.
Hi Amy,
I was very touched by this entry (and the photo of Maya is a particularly lovely one.) I know what you mean about the world encroaching. I think about this all the time, since I know the world has already encroached far too much in Jarrah's experience, and that eventually the world will encroach again in ways that will overwhelm me when she wants to know where she comes from. But I know that will just be one tiny layer of the huge onion of tears (and flavor!) that I fervently hope will be her life.
Maya will look beautiful in her glasses, and she will always feel beautiful because of your love.
Sam
My 4 year old niece has had glasses for 2 years. She's so much happier now that she can see.
And she loves ANY adult who wears glasses. She sometimes convinces her dad to wear his glasses instead of his contacts.
I'm sure it's tough on you though. I'm sure Maya will be adorable in her baby specs. :-)
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